Matt is leaving for Singapore. He got a job offer and he accepted. I don't really know how to feel about this right now... Somehow I feel a bit sad that our relationship or non-relationship for that matter wasn't really able to bloom to its wonderful potential but at the same time I feel somewhat relieved that the holding pattern that we have been in for some time has finally ended.
Maybe it’s just not time for us to be together or maybe we’re just not meant to be together…
I’ll tell you something though this is absolutely new to me… This is one of those things that you will forever wonder “what if”… then we’ll bump into each other sometime in the future and ask ourselves “what if.” I have tried my best always to take the bull by its horns so that I will never wonder later what if… but somehow I just couldn’t do it with Matt… somehow it was one of those situations that I just had to allow to take its course with no interference… SIGH!
Oh Ricky… I totally f...
